And it is so inapplicable to my life now. Funny how that worked out. I think the last time I posted I said that my life was just beginning. If you know me, you know what is going on. But I don't post about things anymore, it's all too important now.

What should I do here now? I'll never end this site, it's the closest thing I have to a chronicle, to a remembrance of the things I have left behind. But my future lies elsewhere I think. I can't post pictures here anymore. You, the random people of this planet, you strangers both present and future, don't deserve them anymore.

My future though... it lies elsewhere, in other languages, in other lands and in this one. It's amazing, it's wonderful. It lets me sleep at night for the first time in 30 years.

Well, I've decided to do something that will make the house purchasing easier, and at least replace the current boring with some sort of new boring.

My request was approved, I'm going up to site. I'm spending the next year in Fort McMurray. I don't know how exciting it will be, but the pay is going to be worth it. I'll be back occasionally, but I guess, until then...

In some ways, I'm not where I thought I was going to be when I was 20. In other ways I've exceeded my expectations beyond anything I could imagine.

Career-wise, I'm set. Thanks to a set of skills I should have known I had, but took me years to realize and enhance. Also a nicely timed oil-boom helped a great deal.

Health-wise... I don't know. It's become clear in the past few years, especially the last one, that there's a lot of things I can no longer eat. I seem to get colds all to easily. Something needs to be done soon I think to take these things under control.

Relationship-wise, well my friends get better all the time. My family, is my family, and it's going to grow sooner than later.

But that's not what you wanted to hear of course. Relationship-wise, well it's been a series of girls where things have never quite worked out right. What can I say? I don't know. Maybe I shouldn't even worry about it. My friends look out for me. My friends also want to insure that I breed my hair colour in to future generations. A lot of them have independently come to this decision. Now that I should be worried about.

So yeah, that's 30. Some parts are good. Sometimes I just float along, looking for the rest.

When that happens, I have to go back to the eye doctor. And well, the receptionist there happens to be the most beautiful girl in the whole world. So I think my brain is deliberately sabotaging me, just so I end up there again and again.

So my motto will be, "Stupid people never fail to disappoint me."

The origins of which go back to the other day, and much longer. Jen and I like to pass each other stories of craziness and stupidness at lunch. And finally in response the other day I had to say it. And I've decided, it's my motto. Stupid people do never fail to disappoint me. They dig down to whole new levels of dumbassedness every single day to the point where I'm no longer surprised. So from hence forth, this is my motto.

And her mom asked me how I was doing, and I gave my usual answer, "You know me, busy as always." You've all heard me say it a million times when you ask me, you know that's what I'm like these days.

And I didn't realize it until after, but that probably made no sense to them.

They didn't know me. They didn't know that me. The last time they knew me I was just someone trying to get somewhere. They never knew the person I've become since them. They don't know the current Tim. The Tim, I will admit it this once, who is a workaholic.

My last post I complained about it never being enough, and it's true. I put in so much, and it's never enough. But on the other hand I am very willing to do what it takes... even if sometimes it feels like it's never enough.

I didn't realize that they don't know that Tim. They didn't know the one who has the career and the responsibilities, and the desk and the four monitors and the people working for him, and the infinite projects and infinite responsibilities.

So I apologize if my answer didn't make sense, but I'm not the person you knew at all. I am someone now.